vampires and runways, o my!

I often fluctuate between two ways of existing in the world. One is the yuckie, self-hater that makes me feel gross and bum-like. The other is seeking and reaching for the positivity in the world, for no reason other than to feel good. For some unknown reason, I have a very difficult time getting out of little Ms. Meanie... it's a bummer and drags me to sit in my pj's all day, which was a repeat of the previous day.

Forcing myself to shower at 8ish at night shouldn't involve the world force to begin with. On the other hand, I've dressed myself up to go out, or at least to see the midnight showing of a movie I've been waiting for. We'll see how it goes. In any case, no one should eat spaghetti o's.