I once attended a random "spirituality" meeting, which was really just a way of recruiting people to a Christian church. I guess it's not all that much of a scam, considering Christianity can often be spiritual, but I guess I was expecting much more of an open-ended route to spirituality. In any case, there was one thing that has always stood out to me from that one night. A little worksheet showing that no matter which way you are moving in life, as long as you are pointed in the "right direction" you are moving closer to god. You can be far away, close, looking sideways, but your story is moving slightly closer to something. I probably didn't explain that very well, but no one else really has to get it.
In any case, I think today made me feel like I'm going in the right direction. I'm not sure what it is/was... maybe the workout and healthy eating and meditating, that didn't really help with sleeping, but did help me wake up to a sunrise- a bit surprising! The most surprising of all is that I haven't gone back to sleep again. I'm hoping this energy lasts until a reasonable hour, upon which I can get more than the 2 hours of sleep I got last night. A kick-butt workout really lifted my spirits today. It's amazing how a day like the others, with absolutely no energy and no desire to function in the world, could lead to a day like today.
Granted I might have pulled a muscle in my neck, but I gotta take what I can get!
In other news, there is no news about jobs at this point. I know, I know, I'm also highly disappointed. I literally have no money and am falling deeper and deeper into debt. It's a weird feeling of helplessness that I hope moves on soon!! I'm literally going to start waitressing soon if this keeps up! Life without money is no joke. Thank God for credit. and then again... it's a curse.
Did I mention my disgusting chocolate cake failure. Not my fault at all, I followed that recipe to the letter!! It's kind of annoying, because I think the idea of baking is fun... and God knows I love the end results (usually!!), which makes it ultra frustrating that many of my cooking ventures don't turn out as wonderful as the picture on the website. I think I might just throw caution to the wind and make an unhealthy version of something... then again, why waste such a good workout?! ;)
I need a massage.
P.S. Some pics from the Lucero 5K Run this week in Boston (MSPP)!!
Awesome short weekend with friends-- love it!!!! <3
What a mish-mashed blog post (guess that's what happens when one doesn't update enough)!
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